Today is my grandpa's 79th birthday. I got to spend the afternoon with him, my grandma, my parents and my aunt and uncle. He got to have is favorite cake (anglefood with strawberries) and for an afternoon, the attention was on him. Only him. When I find someone someday(soon I hope) I pray that he will love me the way my grandpa loves my grandma. Their love is such an inspiration. When my grandma wants to get into her wheel chair, my grandpa picks her up and puts her there. This is not an easy task. My grandma can't help very much, but she throws her one arm around him and hangs on for dear life. Today when she sat in her wheel chair she just started to cry. He kissed her head, then her forehead and said "honey, please don't cry, you did so well" then he kissed her again and said " please don't cry, we are all crying right here with you." Then he said "its okay, you can cry, i know this is hard"
And it is. This time in our lives is so hard. And it probally was to early for him to bring her home, but this is what she wanted it. And my grandfather is a proud man. And I truly believe that he believes he is going to do everything he can to help her on his own. And if his health hurts because of it , he is okay with that because he doesn't want to be here with out her. Being there and seeing this is hard, but it is also breath taking. I hope I find a man who would love me like that if I ever, god forbid, go through something like this. Although I must admit I am afraid to want that. The only person I thought ever did love me like that, didn't and isn't there for me.
But enough about that. My grandfather is a true inspiration to me and it is no secret that he is my favorite person on the planet. We have always had a special connection, I have always been his Amy girl, or as others have picked up "ramis" I pray everyday he's around when I finally find true happiness because he has truly encouraged me to believe it exists. love you grampy
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