2008 not so great

Wow, just looking back through those posts that I started not even a year ago. So much has changed in my my life. If I would have only known at the time when my mom was craving lucky charms that it would soon lead to stage three colon cancer, or that when Kelly was having seziures she'd be in the hospital for almost two months and dealing with an illness that could effect her life forever. If I would have known in 2007 that in August 2008 my grandma would have a stroke due to a brain tumor and never be the same again, I would definatly do things different. I wish I could have predicted I'd lose my bestfriend this year. It was a rough year for us, many highs but the lows were to low to stick out I guess. For him anyway, I'm to focused on the other heartbreaking situtations to focus on anything to do with that other than feeling the abandoment from it. I wish I would have known that when I returned to work in late January 2008 that I would soon lose my passion for my job. That I would begin to become frustrated and burned out. However with the bad there is always small glimmers of good, and that would be I bought my first house. My condo is a blessing. Leo is a blessing, he has turned out to be a fantastic dog and a wonderful friend. 6 of my friends were married in 2008. It was such a treat to be apart of their special day and I enjoy watching their relationships grow and mold into better than before. I have had some wonderful opportunties to be a leader by taking on leadership roles in Chi Omega Alumni groups and as well as Lambda Delta Advisor. I even got to visit St. Louis for a Convention and got to meet my second cousin Teagan for the first time. This year I have grown closer to some fantastic friends, while losing and growing apart from others. I believe people come in and out of your life for reasons. I have learned alot about the kind of person I am and who I want to become and have enjoyed spending my free time looking through old pictures of when we were little. Laughing at my mom's huge glasses and tearing up at pictures of Heather. This year would have been alot easier with a big sister by myside, but I have visited her often, something I never took the time to do before. I am searching for strength, and patience and the will to keep going some days. But mostly I am searching for happieness and Peace, that is what I want most of all.