Word Vomit

I got this idea from my friend Kelsey. What a fun idea..lets see what I can come up with in five minutes





i love my job, it is what I wanted, hoping to make more money as I go, I have become money driven and don't feel like that is bad thing. I worry about my momma health and well being, she is my role model and I won't make it in this world with out her. My dad is amazing. I couldn't ask for a better relationship for us. He motivates me and keeps me grounded, and he loves me like I am his own and I just feel so lucky. I miss my sister alot, even more lately. I see alot of my friends get married and standing next to them is their sister. I am jealous. but not in a bad way. I wish we could experience things like falling in love, weddings, babies and etc together. I love you Heather. I have the greatest friends. I am so lucky to have four that I tell my whole life story to and dozens more that I have an amazing time with and enjoy our relationships so much. Two of my friends are preparing to have babies in June, I could not be more excited!! I can't wait until they are here. My ex boyfriend is an ass..and I remind myself everyday that I got the better end of this deal. I miss my grandma, she was such an amazing spirit and life is not the same with out her. My dog is awesome. He sleeps alot but he is gorgeous. He is my bestfriend. I love how he loves me :) I ove pictures and tv and all sorts of things. GOD is number one to me and want to continue to grow our relationship. i love tootsie rolls. haha. and South Haven, it is a magical place to me and my family. I want to have four children, better get on finding a husband ..haha.

It is well with my soul

My amazingly brave,strong,and loving grandma lost her battle on January 28th after 18 months of fighting brain cancer. In August of 08,when she had her first stroke, I slowly watched the grandma I had known for 23 years turn into someone I will never forget. I feel inlove with her all over again. The tumor had for the most part made it impossible for her to do ANYTHING on her own, however her personality changed as well. My grandma was always the one who did everything for our family. She was the glue. She is an inspiration. And while she wasn't the same grandma for the last 18 months of her life, she was SUCH a pleasure to be around. I will forever be thankful for the fact that I lived just 20 minutes away and visit her alot. In the last week of her life I would just lay next to her, and the only words she would attempt to say was an answer back to me when I would say "i love you". she couldn't say it, but she would try. And she could squeeze my hand..I will never forget those last moments. I am so sad that she is gone. My heart breaks for my grandpa who is trying to manage through life with out her. Who might I add, gave her service(he is a minister) talking about gut wrenching. And my mom who took care of her for 18 months, along with fighting cancer herself. My grandma was laid to rest very close to my sister and I just know they are up in Heaven laughing, and making mashed potatoes and saving a spot for the rest of us. And that, alone gives me overwhelming peace. :)

me and my grandma at my cousins wedding 1 month before she got sick

us in Christmas with our matching pjs!

she's beautiful

Much to update

I have had one crazy week. Check back with me in a few days and I will update you on two life changing events that happened in one week...one exciting..one incredibly sad. Happy blogging friends :)

"Get up and finish what you started"

So I know, I know..I'm several life changing seasons late..but I have found a new love...The Biggest Loser. I don't make it out of one 60 minute episode without crying. For those of you who haven't watched just one episode, try it..especially if you have ever felt bad for yourself about not being able to lose a few pounds. Tuesdays at 8..NBC. Jillian Michaels is seriously my hero. I would give anything for her to be my trainer. I do have (with the suggestions of my friends Ana and Julie) 20 day shred...and needless to say I've only made it through like five days..and since my surgery I can't do much more than ride the bike and lift. But one day..I will let Jillian yell at me for a month straight ;)

So do you have favorites yet? I can't believe the red team. The wife in particular, throwing the weigh in, and I dislike the green team just as much. Ugh their body language(the crossed arms and pouting faces) ticks me off so much. How ungrateful can you be? Pull yourself together and alskdfjslkjf ugh I just want to hit them in the face. Right now I am rooting for the black team, the orange team and the Hawaiian cousins, grey team.

disapointed

After Jason Mesnik turned out to be a TOTAL d-bag, I started trying to find out a head of time what happens on the seasons, because it seems some how, they never choose(or stick with) the person I looove. ha. So I was fishing around about this Season, Jake. And I found a spoiler that says that Ali leaves early for work reasons and Tenly and Vienna are in the top two..which I love Tenly, but then he choose Vienna. Im shocked!! WHYYYY ..I posted the article below..does anyone else know any spoilers that contradict this?!!


"Final four girls on the show are : Tenley, Gia, Ali, and Vienna.
Ali voluntarily leaves the show for work related reasons.
Gia was sent home after the overnight dates - which leaves the final two - Tenley and Vienna.
And Jake's final choice is Vienna Girardi. Yes, the 23-year-old, Marketing Representative from Sanford, FL is allegedly the winner of this season of the Bachelor. It is not known if they are engaged."

On the Wings of Love

Can I get a show of hands of who is in love with Jake the new bachelor?! Hopefully we all remember him from Jillian's season of the bachelorette. Personally, I don't think she made a mistake letting him go, they weren't right for each other, he is such a great guy, and Jillian is my favorite bachelorette, but he's to nice for her. He needs a girl he can sweep off her feet and treat like a princess, and that isn't always right for every girl.
So three episodes in, I definitely have my favorites. From the very beginning my favorite was Tenley. She was one of Jakes favs too because he gave her the first impression rose. Still love love love her! She seems like one of the most genuine girls to come on the show I have ever seen. I loved Ali after their one on one date. She is cute, fun and has lots of down to earth qualities, however after this past episode I wonder if she has the capabilities to be a mean girl.
And can you believe how crazy Michelle was? I am glad he got rid of her..and Elizabeth too..the one who wouldn't kiss him? CRAZZZZY...It is one thing to hold back the affection, it is totally another thing to tease him with it.
What I appreciate that Jake has done so far is he is not messing around. Once he knows some one is not right for him he sends them packing. He doesn't feel like he needs to wait for a rose ceremony, or give out all x amount of roses....I like his thinking..dang should've tried out for the show..haha

Tenly

Ali

Worlds Worst

Wow,

I am officially the worlds worst blogger!! How am I to build my fan base when I don't even put anything out there! Not to much going on in my world. I will try to summarize by months.

October-last day as a Staffing Manager at RHI and then went into ACL surgery, which caused me to be out of work for two weeks. I then returned to the North Olmsted office as a Recruiter. Much better role for me and less stress :) I also found out my best friend was prego! This has been a fun journey. She will be 14 weeks tomorrow.

November-Just full of working. I have made a really great friend here out in the North Olmsted office. Her name is Mili. She is great. We have a lot in common! oh and she is prego too and getting married :) fun! Bird had her bridal shower, and it is exciting that her wedding is coming up so soon. I feel in my kitchen, setting my recovery back two weeks, but I am recovering from that okay, my dad is putting me through great rehab and we have a workout/diet plan coming once I am able to do cardio. Went to see Wicked with my parents. It was my second time, but their first, and they both loved it. Who wouldn't!?

December-Just still working(i know my life is sooo exciting.) I have had a blast with my mom making my condo all festive. Sometimes I really want to pack up and move to NC. I wish more than anything that I could. Alot.

Pictures to add coming later :) don't hate me to badddd!!